So I've been trying the one crutch thing for a while. It works well at home but I suspect I've been regularly putting more than the 75% of my weight on the foot. That doesn't seem to be a huge problem, but I am more swollen and have been having more pain. It is just so nice to have at least one hand to carry things with. Since the one crutch at home was going so well, I got overconfident and went to the grocery store thinking I could do the shopping without the stupid sit down cart that makes me feel a bit humiliated. On hundred feet into the store, I knew that was a mistake and went back for the cart. The store just seemed so huge! Very sad.
Anyway, I've been pushing it a bit for the last few days so decided to try to take it easier today. Hopefully that will enable me to push it the next few days. I can't imagine working right now with this foot. Those of you who have gone back to work within a month or so have my admiration and sympathy. I'm worried about going back and teaching. I'm constantly on my feet what with the actual instructing and then wandering among the desks helping and keeping kids focused. Gonna have to do it from the front of the room for a while. Scary!
When I went out yesterday, I realized just how cooped up I've been. I was wheeling through Costco looking wide eyed at all the stuff. The thought going through my head was, "Gosh, there's a whole world out here and I'm missing it!" Cabin fever has taken over. I'm more than cranky, having hateful thoughts and just generally living far too much in my own head. Joni Mitchell has a song that says, "When you dig too deep, you lose good sleep and it makes you heavy company." I'm pretty much there. Can't wait until this is over!
In the previous paragraph, I keep wanting to delete the "hateful thoughts" piece, but I think it's important for people who are thinking about this surgery just how hard it is emotionally so am leaving it in.
Off to do physical therapy.
Pain - 1 to 2, swelling 2 - 5 (yikes!)
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